Fiqz.blogspot.com =D

welcome.

Welcome to Taufiq's life.
Fiqz.blogspot.com
This is my blog, not yours. I'll forever do the writing and you'll do the reading.
But comments are forever accepted =D.
You're NOT allowed to spam my tagboard.

Sunday, February 07, 2010

the revival

Dear Bloggie...

First it was just me, then she came along...=]

Hello all! =]

I hope everyone's doing great...

Yea, it's been 2 months since I updated this...

Loads of things happend...

Not even sure where to start...

Ok so I'm at this new job of mine, I'm still a medic though...

In the Medical Centre...

I'm allocated to the Treatment side...

Basically the team handles real cases...

We give flu jabs and we draw blood too...

I feel quite comfortable being in treatment...

My first month in there, it felt weird cause I was all over the places...

I didn't know what to do and all...

But the 2nd month, I already sorta like, got myself aquainted with the place...

The people I work with are nice...

So overall I know that's where I should be...

I also got promoted to Lance Corporal last week...

Not really much of a big deal actually...

But it beats being a private...

I'm just trying to accept the responsibilities being thrown to me...

Especially since my senior's recovering at home, I need to step up immediately...

I believe I can do it, but of course, I won't be able to do it without the help of the people I work with...

I still got a long long long way to go...

Just hoping that I can be strong enough...

On other news, I've started with my driving lessons...

First lesson quite dry, I was taught about everything inside the dashboard...

Learnt to accelerate and reverse...

Second lesson went round and round the circuit....

Third lesson almost the same as the 2nd...

Fourth lesson went out to the road for the first time...

Fifth lesson, driving outside 2nd time...

Today is the 6th lesson and I really improved on my moving off, gear shifting and turning...

So next lesson which will be in 2 weeks time, will be ending Module One...

And the start of Module Two...

Steps towards my driving license! =]

Next week is CNY!

And also Valentine's day...

Unfortunately I won't be in Singapore with my most loved one...

So I wish my LOVED on understands that I don't have a choice...

Suppose to be our first V-day together...

Next year k dear? =]

Ok I'm done with blogging...

I keep telling myself to train for IPPT...

But my ass is just too heavy to move...=X

I NEED TO RUNNNN!

And train my pull ups and SBJ!

Rawr...

Nvm, I shall overcome this laziness in me! =]

Ok the time now is 8.21pm...

I ironed my smart 4 uniform which is to be brought to work tomorrow...

work.

K I'm off!

Take care all!

Bybyez!

*I'm always here for ya ;)*

Zupz Zupz!

7:35 PM

Life, goes on...

Monday, December 14, 2009

new job, new life

Dear Bloggie...

What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

Hello all! =]

I hope everyone's feeling well...

As most of you guys know, I'm now no more working in station...

I'm now in Medical Centre...

The environment is completely different...

And there are some stress to the job, but I can handle...

Anyways...

Won't talk about work...

I'm gonna take leave this friday, so people, start calling me up and calling me out...

Gosh I'm like tired after a day's work...

So yea...

Just blogging for the sake of blogging...

Am I a good friend?

A good bf?

I'm just doing things so that people are happy...

Cause seeing them happy makes me happy too...

But when I see my loved ones feel down, and there's nothing I can do...

I'll just feel helpless, I wanna help, but I can't...

The feeling sucks big time...

But I guess I just gotta understand and take a step back...

At times I don't know if I should pursue it or take a step back...

So yea...

My intentions are good, but sometimes they are just, misinterprited...

Oh wells...

I have no idea what I'm talking about...

I should stop blogging like, now...

So take care people...

Have a great month ahead!

The new year's coming!

I'm gonna start my driving lessons next month...

Hopefully can get my license as soon as possible...

Ok I'm goin off now...

Bye!

*There's nothing that could come between us*

Zupz Zupz!

8:02 PM

Life, goes on...

Friday, November 13, 2009

1 + 1 = us

Dear Bloggie...

There're good times as well as bad ones, it's how we deal with them that matters.

Hello all! =]

Ok it's been like forever since I updated this blog...

*kinda sounds routine for me to be saying this everytime I blog*

Anyways, not that I don't want to blog, I just lost the touch to blog already...

But I'm here now, so I shall blog! =D

The past few month has been filled with loads of ups and downs...

To be honest, mostly filled with downs...

But it's alright, it's the downs that makes the ups more appreciative...

Anyway, even though I still get nervous or anxiety attacks while working...

I'm really trying to overcome it, even though it takes alot of psycho-ing on my part...

I'm also glad that there are people around me understands what I'm going through...

Which makes it easier for me to talk to people...

By far it's my first working experience as I've never worked before...

Quite an eye-opener on many levels...

Lets just see how far I'll go with this...

On to other stuff...

Yesterday I went out with gf...

Followed by meeting my friends to go SGH...

So in the morning, I went to CDC at ubi for my e-trial for FTT...

The questions were much more tricky, but I manage to do all the trial papers...

Then after that, flew over to bukit gombak, gf was late, but it's ok. =]

Then went to Sim Lim, on the way there, we saw ang mohs. =X

So we walked around sim lim trying to find this mp3 player...

Sadly out of all the shops in the whole building, only two shops sold the mp3 player...

So clearly we went for the shop which sold it at a lower price... =]

After Sim Lim, went to bugis to have lunch at PastaMania...

We ate the same thing, which was the chicken cheese *something*...

Spammed the cheese cause cheese is AWESOME... =X

After we're done with eating, something happend *YAY!* then we proceeded to outram...

Waited for jazli and his sister then proceeded to SGH...

After SGH, sent gf home and after that went somewhere, not too sure where...

Reached home at 12am sharp...

Received a msg for gf, made me smile. =]

Then went to sleep...

That was the day I was out of my house for a very very long time... =X

Ok that's all...

I'll update soon I guess...

Take care everyone!

*Lets be there for each other, together*

Zupz Zupz!

9:07 AM

Life, goes on...

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

and then we turned 2

Dear Bloggie...

Hello all! =]

Just felt like updating this blog...

So far life has been quite alright...

Maybe just having some problems at work...

But other than that, life's quite interesting...

Going out for calls...

Is a normal thing for normal medics, paramedics, drivers...

They can handle the kind of stress the situation throws at them...

And I respect that alot, I really do...

But much to my own disappointment, I'm a medic who has a disability and has to face it sooner or later...

I've tried taking it as a challenge for myself, and I doubt anyone can ever understand what I'm going through...

So this is just me, voicing out my thoughts...

To others I might be a disgrace to all medics, but to some, I'm just doing the right thing...

But what other people think, is only based on personal opinions without any thorough investigation...

Call me a coward or label me courageous, I know i'm doing the right thing, that matters most...

I'm sick of being scared of doing what I'm supposed to...

So I will do what I need to do...

Regardless of what society thinks, I have to change something which will bring harm to myself...

I pray to Allah that my condition doesn't get any worse.......

On another note...

I love my gf loads! =]

Ok that's all for now...

Stay tuned and please pray for my successful transfer out...

Take care everyone, stay safe! =]

*As long as we stay true to each other, we'll go all the way together*

Zupz Zupz!

2:37 PM

Life, goes on...

Monday, October 12, 2009

a love that's meant to be

Dear Bloggie...

Hello all! =]

Ok...

Yesterday I had THE most amazing time of my life...

For starters, alot of first times yesterday....

Yesterday I went BERjalan raye with my peeps...

My gf tagged along...

Our first time goin jalan raye together...

I was excited, yet nervous at the same time... =X

But it was a day filled with interesting stuff... heez...

Ok I shan't tell the story here, if you wanna know then ask me personally...

Cause I'm not sure if I'm allowed to, say all this things... =X

So yea...

A day that I can never forget...

Wow...

And tomorrow I have work, gosh, what a bummer...

Well nonetheless, I'm a medic, and that's what I do best, helping people! =]

Ironed shirt, Ironed pants, Placed nametag and medic badge on shirt, tomorrow need to wear belt...

Macam batman sak... -.-

Ok, I'm ready for work tomorrow!

I hope my gf's alright...

Hmmm...

I guess that's all for today...

Will update soon then!

Take care people!

*I hope I gave the right impression to her family*

Zupz Zupz!

8:16 PM

Life, goes on...

Saturday, October 03, 2009

but they lucky guy's not me...

Dear Bloggie...

As yet another chapter ends, a new chapter unfolds.

Hello all...

Kinda in a solemn mood now...

Don't know why, don't care why, I just wanna sing...

So MOC has finally come to an end...

There were ups and downs, mostly downs to be honest(refering to all the half-rights)...

I came, I learned, I knew....

And now I'm a medic officially...

I entered NS with one purpose and one purpose alone...

To get into Medic course and to be a medic...

A purpose based on putting my energy in helping people...

It's to my full knowledge that the job is a dangerous one...

Being frontline...

But if I can help someone so that their loved ones don't lose him/her, I'll risk my life for it...

I'm posted to Tampines Fire Station and will start working on Monday...

Alot of things ran through my mind...

Could be the cause of my sadness, but at the same time i'm happy...

I need emotional support, as much as I can...

And especially more when I eventually meet with a dead body or killed someone due to my lack of judgement...

but... I know I only have myself to count on...

Currently trying to prepare myself for bloody cases, amputated hands, spinal injuries...

Gosh...

Sorry guys...

I haven't been such a sunshine when I blog...

I know...

Something's bothering me, but I can't describe or know what it is...

Maybe I'm just scared.... scared of losing it all...

Tomorrow shall be a better day...

I want to be as honest as possible...

Be myself...

And if I'm lucky, I'll be happy...

Till the next time...

Take care guys...=]

*Give me the strength to face even the toughest diversities*

Zupz Zupz!

5:48 PM

Life, goes on...

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Give me the strength...

Dear Bloggie...

Make me feel alive again...

Hello peeps...or should I say, hey there blog...

It's been... a very... emotionally draining week...

Tiring... my head hurts on most parts...

Tempted to grab a knife and puncture it through the arteries...

But it aint worth it... always not worth it...

Everything I do, is always wrong...

Just plain and simple, it's not worth it...

Why am I feeling this way, i dun have a clue...

Just a very deep dark alley where my mind has gone to...

Nothing i do is ever good enough...

Stress from work, stress from home...

Where else am I to find my peace...

Living when life is just about pleasing others...

What do they know about me...

What do they care...

Do they even listen...

Countless times I've tried to help, but it's still the same problems...

My help was sincere, but now it felt like it never existed...

I guess my advices were to vague, general...

Anyone could give those kind of advice...

So I guess I shall stop my advice, which will only lead to me being hurt over and over again...

Take care people...

And sorry for intruding your lives....

Zupz Zupz!

5:54 PM

Life, goes on...