Erm.... itz almost 12Am now.... and i am still not sleeping(Oh no!) well, actually i dun feel sleepy yet though..... erm, maybe i am juz abit blur at things nowadays, or maybe not abit, i am VERY blur abt sum things nowadays....... alot of "hars" "watz" and "HAR!?"..... manz, i am like dis blur guy again, wish i was in sec 2, wen my days were very grand(though dey weren't).... Well, 2day was like a disaster for me, in soccer, i fell down and injured myself alot, den at home, got scolding from my dad for bad results(hu'z dad wun scold, I am counted lucky 2 get to go online cuz he'z asleep,) Den i juz dunno wat else is going to happen, sumtimes, i try 2 smile, yet my face wun budge, tears start to drip out, sadness falls in....... and i ask myself wy i can't smile...... for how long have i been very happy and yet still have 2 face d sadness which is so new to me, wat mistakes did i do, i tell myself to cheer up, but itz juz no use as i keep shouting "watz d use" Now, every part of myself is like, gone..... hopefully sumting cheers me up sooner or later...... and hopefully tml will be a better day for me...... anywayz, signing out now at 12.10am..... nitez 2 all.......