Dear Bloggie....

Ah..... 14th of July......
Just 17 years ago... The birth of a kid....
Who envissioned a life of freedom and peace....
Searched out for a partner since he was a kid.....
Met two wonderful girls.....
But rejected by dem....
And so dis kid.... Trying to learn d ways of life....
Starts to create theories....
Sum may be true... Sum may be not....
The point is... Not everyting wat it seems to be.....

17 years ago... I was small....
Barely any bigger den my head now...
But wat dat baby holds in himself....
Was self courage and self determination....
He went thru any obstacles with bravery, be it small or big.....
I look back at those times....
People hu I've helped....
People hu's lives I've ruined....
And for once case, Both....
Love... The cause of dis major problems...
We keep telling ourselves to move away from it...
Yet the heart still insist in finding a partner.....
Sumtimes thoughts and feelings have d most opposite ways....
Yet we still want to be follow our guts....
And in the end we regret choosing the path we have chosed....
We question ourselves for wy we have placed so much trust in sumone....
Sumone hu would just destroy dat trust.....
And the person u brought up...
Will be d one hu brings u down.....
People such as dis, I must admit, are fickle minded.....
Decisions thrown in tantrums of feelings and emotions....
I'm not pin pointing on anyone here...
Please hor, for 17 years...
Wen will I ever get to have a say in, anything?
Even wen I got sumting to say, will there be anyone to listen?
It may just get unoticed and drift away even when there's no wind....

14th of July.... Well.. Basically I must be tankful ar....
Noe wy? Cuz I didn't get whacked.... By anyone!!! Hahakz.. =D
Oh yeaz... I got alot of bday wishes manz... Hahakz...
And the whole bulk of dem came at 12am.. hahakz.....
Omg.... Of cuz the 1st of dem was my beloved sis....
Hahakz.. Exactly.. no la, 2 seconds after 12 am... Hehez....
So accurate hor.... Den followed by my buddy.....
Den followed by Ilyana!!! Den followed by Liyana....
Den followed by Fairuz.... Hu else ar.. Hahakz....
Erm, I realised got no guys mgz me... Sadded... =X
Nvm ar...
Then I went to bed.... Hehez....

Well.... I got noting else to say ar......
Just dat.. Sumting is missing.. and datz love...
Trying to force love out of fiqz equation....
But so difficult....
Why do u still linger my head wen ur not needed anymore....
Can u just leave me.... In my peace...
Sheesh.....

I just wanna tank my buddy.. for the present....
And the letter u gave me.... the poem was verynice.... =D

Yupz... So dat was 14th of July 2005.....
Letz just see wat happens in 14th July 2006 shall we?
I doubt I'll have a partner by den....
So hopeless in relationships... Sheesh.. BYEZ!

ZupZ ZupZ!