Unforgiven...

So well I tried reaching out, hoping for a second chance...
And I guess all that I got was being ignored again and again...
I know that all hope seems to be lost...
But I wouldn't want to think of it that way...

Hope is like energy, it cannot be created nor destroyed...
It can be shifted and it takes on many forms...
So yes, I still do believe we will be friends again one day...
I just hope that day comes before I cough out my last breath...

I'm sure she would know how fragile life could be...
The last few moments with her, I remembered she was feeling very ill...
And all I could do was hope that she was alright, my continuous prayers for her...
But somehow I messed it up, yes I know I messed it up real bad...

Somehow I just feel this is just the universe spitting back in my face for something I did in the past...
I admit, I did ignore a certain someone for a year or two...
That was due to my lack of compassion, I was lost...
But my heart gave in and I forgave that person and at least we're still on talking terms...

A rock, no matter how hard it is, when a stream of water runs through it, it will break...
Persistence and resilience...
I tried all the means I could to at least be acknowledged by her in some way...
But she completely shut me off, blocked me out, and pretend I never existed...
Yea I'm probably just one of those friends she would just push away...
Sucks to be me...
But well that's life...
The people you trust the most, push you down the hardest...
The people you wish would be there for you, just aren't...
Sometimes you just gotta depend on yourself...

Fact is, I tried to make things right again...
Maybe I just don't deserve the chance...
I have failed you, failed the friendship we had, and the promises we made...
And all I can say, is that I am Sorry...