Dear myself.....

2nite, I am writing to you in perfect english because I just want you to see this...(elipsis dots) Anyway, today has not been a very good day for me, and the same goes for the days before this day, I have been sick, and when I say sick, I mean very sick(but not as sick to have SARS, I hope), but I will still live on(I hope to live on)...

My sickness was not able to pull me back from performing on stage and going back to my primary school today which is Griffiths Primary, but the consequences I have to face, which is an aching head, a pair of tired legs and hands, a nose which keeps running out with mucus, a pair of eyes which "burns" everytime I close my eyes, and now, I am starting to get a fever. What have I done to deserve this, I admit I have done wrong things, but I have not done the same mistakes.

In band, I was happilly playing my euphonium, and I was hoping to start a new life with my euphonium, I was perfecting everything I could with my euphonium, but then, just last week, my conductor told me to change from euphonium to a tuba. That really broke my heart into trilions of pieces, because the euphonium was the 1st reason I liked coming to band. And of course the second reason was that I loved classical music. But without my 1st reason, I feel useless and a drag to go to band now, my euphonium was the reason i stayed in band, and to take that away from me, I feel totally useless. I am not making a complaint, because I have not tried fully the tuba, but what I am trying to say is that I can never depart from the euphonium, it has been the only instrument I have ever used which I liked playing and enjoy most playing with. I'd like to say again, my euphonium is like something so much valuable to me, is doesn't matter who's euphonium, just don't change that instrument for me, I just can't change, even to a smaller instrument in a brass section in band i mean, I simply can't, I really felt as if I could cry hearing that I had to change to a tuba. Anyway, if i get well tomorrow, I will go to band and see how 1st...

Now to my studies, I passed my Social Studies which is like a big achievement for me, and I also passed my maths, which shows I am not that bad in maths and Social Studies, I failed my Geography though, but my failure was only by afew marks which I know I had to study more on it, I passed both my Chemistry and Physics which gurantees a pass for me in Combine Science, and as for POA, I took the retest and still waiting for the results, Malay I passed but with very low marks, and as for English, I am still waiting too...

Anyway, thats all I want to tell you 2nite, because I need to sleep already as my eyes can't take anymore of the pain converted from the screen to my eyes, so I shall just bid farewell to you and I hope to update you as soon as possible and I hope you pray that I get well...

From lots of love,
Fiqz