Dear Bloggie.........=(

Yo peeps out there readin my blog, I welcum u.....
2day... As I've said... A sad day fer me.... Very sad day....
I'm juz alone... Livin Life a loner... Sum may call it cool....
But I juz dun understand, maybe nv will....
Hari Raya ish juz around d corner... Yea I noe...
I hafta wear my old Baju Raya while others get new....
I aint complaining... I'm grateful 2 even have one....
But wy do u all keep laughin at me??
I aint rich ya noe... And how abt dose beggers on d street?
U go around laughin at dem too? I aint dissing u guyz...
But at least have sum respect for pple hu are poor..
Not dat I'm saying I am... But I haven't been appriciatin enough...
So I'm cursed for life... Both in love n everyting...
I pray 2 god each day... To make me realise my mistakes....
To make me better each day... But dis curse....
Has broken dis sorry heart of mine thrice......

I'm Hoping, by saying all dis.. Pple would change...
But I'm hoping for too much.... It aint gonna happen....
Pple juz read my blog, process in their minds...
And throw it out like rubbish... I dun expect u 2 memorise my blog...
But I do expect u guyz 2 learn sumting from my experience...
Coz my life aint d best, probably, itz d worse....
I'm not complaining, coz there are others hu have worse fates den me...
Hu dunno watz love or even to feel loved....
Those hu dun have food to eat and been scavaging from dustbins....
Seems rediculous, but itz true, there are these pple....
Even those hu eats ciggerette butts......
Datz life... D world's coming to an end..
Face it..... Haiz... Itz sad.. Onli a handful realise dis....
Dat is wy I keep repeating it over n over again.....

haiz.... Sad manz, juz sad.... Itz juz me again....
Wy does it hafta be me me me all d time...
Wadda hell, dis is my blog la....
Juz by saying dat, pple would tink I'm fierce....
And dey would have dat "caution:very fierce" perception of me oleady....
Have ya ever heard of dun judge a book by itz cover?
Dun judge me by my blog or my looks....
Coz Itz different... Pple can fall in love with me....
And I can fall in love with dem too....
But I'm lookin for a relationship dat can last long....
NOT a relationship dat last for less den a week....
I have a far view of tings, especially relationships....
Dat was wy my 1st relationship was a year.....
And it still hurtz badly.....
And the 2nd.... Haiz..... Dun ask.....
It juz hurtz more tinking abt it.....
I'm crying now ya noe, I am... My keyboard is Soaked with tear drops...
i noe I'm a guy, many pple tink guyz dun cry.....
Dey tink we are robots hu dun have feelings?
I for one, has d biggest feelings capacity, inherited from my mom...
This Emotionalz feelings in me, I can't ignore....
cuz datz hu I am... I do cry, my heart does hurt...
I'm a Human Being too like u....
Apart from breaking up from a relationship....
My cat has been sick since yesterday...
I hope she getz well soon or i'll really breakdown....
Yea u guyz, I've been bragging abt breaking down...
Trust me, I have broken down couple of times....
Not juz me, my heart broke down too...
I'm emotionally unstable.... So for those hu wants 2 be with me....
I'm kinda dangerous... I sumtimes do tings i dun intend to....
For one, I take promises seriously.....
And like I've said....

When sumone breaks their promises, I can't trust d person animore....
Itz hard 2 regain back my trust coz I've gotta tink twice....
Itz a human nature to do so.... And with dat, Please.....
Tink b4 u make promises... Tink far....
I've made a promise to sumone... And I tot far.....
Seriously I did... But life's unpredictable.....
I wanna stay strong to dat promise....
But I can't fight with fate....

Wat is dis meaning wen pple talk abt love...
When dey say dey leave it to fate....
Does it mean dey stop looking?
And wait for their "prince/princess" to drop from d sky?
Juz to make tings clear... This aint no fairy tale....
There are no "romeo" or "prince" out there....
Itz how u see it and how u take d person 4 hu d person is....
Nobody's perfect for anyone... There will be problems....
There will be challenges in life......
And wen u get into a relationship....
D challenge getz even worse...
Coz u gotta take full responsibility for ur partner....
And if u can't manage ur own life....
Wat makes u tink ur ready for two of dose?
Tink abt it even b4 u get into a relationship ya....
Where's ur commitment gonna be...
For me, both my ex-s dun really have commitment in me....
I gave my all, yea I did... But i lost it all too....
And once they are gone... I wonder if they will ever come back....
I wonder... If my ex would come back to me....
Even I keep dreaming of her... Wen I sleep of cuz....
Does it mean she's gonna come back to me? or izzit juz a passing dream...
Juz to make me hurt more.... Luckily i dun need ta go school...
Or I'll be asleep rather den do any work.... Haiz....

Well peeps.... Aint d best post so far.....
But hey, I hope my message does get across to u guyz....
So yea... Take carez everyone! -(