Dear Bloggie......

I dunno wy I've been updating so dutifully... Hahakz...
Dun ask me, ask OCBC hor... Anywayz... On with the day.....

In da mornin.... Wasn't feelin kinda well.... Sneezin and stuff, no biggy....
Den it got worse... I juz ignored.... Luckily during recess time I was feelin better.....
Oh yar, got to know that I got Geography test on Friday....
Out of all the days, it just had to be on a friday.....
I know how u feel.... Now on friday, I got three things....(Hat-Trick!!! woohoo!-.-")
Geography Test.... O level Maths Results, and of cuz, The Rehearsal at SCH......
My my.... This week is the worse of all the weeks manz.... Can't wait for saturday...
Anywayz... On with my story for 2day....
After recess I had English(realise my english language suddenly changed...)
Because I've got English test tommorow... Which simply, sucks....
Haiz.... The whole period, the teacher was blabbering and Bickering abt Summary writing....
For some reason I find it Annoying.... We had to do a first draft for summary.....
Which to most of the people in my class thought that it was a waste of time,....
Even the teacher herself agreed to it... But...but... but.... Always with her butts....
She said that a good technique will lead to the best answer.....
For once she actually said something logical that my brain could accept..sheesh..
Moving along....Wait, backtrack for awhile here....
1st Period was VL.... And we were given this worksheet about our strengths...
Obviously I was strong in my creative and social part...
I was also more into Researching.... Kinda weird, but its true u know....
I lurve to find out about things that I don't know.....
Finding out more about how people behave and all...
Okok.... That was just a rough idea on my VL period....
Now, I got chocolates from my junior!!!! Hahahakz...
1st time you know... Amazing, simply amazing....
Never have I gotten anything, and some more from my Junior....
Anyways... What in The World am I blabbering about manz....
Starting to sound just like my teacher...eeewwwww....

After Recess was Kinda dry too.... Like i've said, the english period...
But when it came to malay period... Things started to change.....
Well, for me of cuz... As you know(or don't), today I was feeling way down....
Haiz... But.....
During malay period... I brought the research thingy my teacher ask to bring....
And guess what I got, DODOL! yupz, u heard me, DODOL!
hahakz.... I just can't believe it.... In one day I got chocolates and DODOL....
Wahahaha... Ishq, I am crapping already in purrrrfect english....
Hahakz... Anyways..... Today I ended early... Got home at about 12.40pm....
And what else... I hit the bed ar..... Slept for dunno how long.....
And I woke up at about 4+... Wasn't quite sure how I woke up...
But I did... So yeaz.... Now I'm juz feeling confused.....
About what, I can tell you, everyting......
I feel destroyed... The whole day I was like far away from excitement...
Feeling kinda dead so far.... I can't voice out how I feel... Cuz...
It will juz make things worse... At a time like this... How I wish i was better of dead...
Don't worry, I've not changed to my "darkside", I'm still me....
Somehow or someway... I just get misunderstood... While trying to understand others...
That often leads to confusion and fights and quarrels and, you know wat I mean....
I hate all that... Makes me cry inside, it juz breaks my inner self....
This big heart of mine is strong, but if there's afew cracks, it breaks away easily...
Yes, I admit, I'm sensitive... I can only blame myself for that....
But I also feel for others, and I'm proud of that..... Trying to change the world...
Even in a smale scale can be quite difficult... What more in the means of Politics?
Me against this small world I'm living in....
This small world which is always changing.....
I'm starting to get old, yet I feel young and strong....
Somehow, I want to find myself out there....
I know I'm out there... Living my dreams...
Being who I am... Who I want to be....
But dreams, are just dreams which are stuck in my head...
Love, lust, confusion, miconceptions, misunderstandings, mixed feelings....
Love... What is love.... Do I even love myself for being me...
Or is there a better part of me juz waiting to be discoevered....
Lust.... Actually I don't quite understand what lust is...
Misconceptions.... Whats misconceptions.... How do u look at yourself?
What do you feel about yourself? What do you think about yourself...
Confusion... A state that I'm experiencing now.... Itz when things just go blur....
And you don't understand anything anymore, yet you still want to find out....
I feel like I'm lost.... Cursed for life.... Trying to prove myself wrong....
But I'm just proven wrong all the time... Somehow, i wish Einstein was still alive...
I can't just knock on his grave and expect his soul to pop out from no where right?
Now even THAT is unlogical.... Even though there are stuffs called GHOST....
Ok, we won't go there.... hahakz....
Misunderstandings.... this one, the most famous and common problem....
Wy can't people get along? Poor communication, as simple as that...
We can't possibly be there all the time right, so all the time spent with each other is important...
I wouldn't wanna touch on misunderstandings too deeply... Don't ask why....
Hahakz... Yeaz...

Somehow, Writing all those stuff made me feel better already......
No wonder your such a great friend bloggie... Hahakz....
Only you listens to what I say, maybe coz partly you have nothing better to do...
Hahakz... Ok la.. Fiqz not writing anymore... Those readers out there gettin tired...
So I'll stop here kkz? You all read slowly la yar... I tried 2 keep my english as standard as possible..
For dose hu dun understand, try 2 understand la yar... If still dun understand..
Den dunnid... Itz my life anywayz.. Fiqz OUT! =D