Dear Bloggie...

*Stabs a potato*
Potato anyone?

Running along...
I think life's unfair, those in favour, say I...
Ok fine, life aint so bad...
Sheesh...

I passed my Computer modules!
Wooohooosh!
So there goes my worries on failing ECS, HAH!
In your face! =X
In who's face you may ask?
I have no idea...

And the replacement cher for MAD says my project is do-able...
Just when I thought it's too nonsensical...
I mean, too chim...
So I guess, Edugame it is...
Gamecanvas is so CHIM!
Must start preparing and learning on it ASAP...

Ok...
Today's the last day of June...
Before I can kiss it's ass goodbye, for now...
And say hello to good jolly ol' July!

So tomorrow gonna meet Fila...
She's gonna teach me the shutter speed thingy...
Good timing, can meet after school..
Then slack for awhile, then go band...
Super nice...

Wednesday should have nothing on...
So if anyone wanna ask me out during my happy month, please do!
Thursday band, Friday band and Saturday band...
Sunday piano lesson...
Other then Wednesday, I'm packed...
Hee!

I finally bought the past exam papers for Grade 5 theory...
Cost me 30 bucks...
4 Years...
4 Papers per year...
I got 16 papers to complete before November, which is my Exam month...
I'll be going all out for distinction, RAWR!(fake boy!)

I realised, that no matter how busy I am...
I still think of her...
And the thing is, I'm not complaining...
Helps me sooth my mind, and calm my soul...
Hate is bad, Love is good...

And everyone has heard about those predictions...
From some guy...
About the future and stuff like that...
To be honest...
You don't need some predictions to open your eyes at how devastated the world already is...
The world is dying...
And there's actually people who cares and wants to make it a better place...
*starts listening to Heal the World by Michael Jackson*
We need to make this world a better place...
For our children, and our children's children...
Global warming is an enourmous issue nowadays...
*that's why I rarely use aircon and don't take plastic bags from 7 eleven*
Everytime I stare into the sky...
The formation of clouds make me realise how beautiful our world is...

Sadly not many people knows what they could do to help...
Even though there's been so much emphasis on it...
I shall spare the advices, cause I'm not a true green environmentalist myself...
But lets come together, and make this world a better place...

But lets say...
The world is coming to an end...
And what would I do...
What would I want...
What would I need...
Of course I'd want to go to heaven...
But that's spiritually...
But emotionally...
I wanna feel balanced again...
I wanna feel strongly happy again...
I wanna feel a strong bond with someone...
I wanna feel someone having a strong bond with me...
I wanna feel loved, truly...
I wanna love, with all my heart...
I wanna care for someone...
I wanna risk something I have for someone...
I wanna yearn for an unbreakable trust...

But I guess...
You don't have to wait till the end of time before you could wish for such things...
Cause they'll never come...
Maybe they will, maybe they will come up to your front door...
But they won't knock...
And you'll be forever oblivious to the fact that your fate has left...
Or maybe...
You opened the door...
You let her in...
But while you're sleeping, she leaves...
And you wake up covered in tears...

It's a curse not a blessing...
For history has always been there to haunt my present...
But sometimes I just get too drawn in...
And believe that history won't repeat itself...
But it did...
There's a saying, "Those who don't study history, are doomed to repeat it"...
I can't say I've studied much on my history...
Cause the past is something I'd wish I could erase...
But I guess, someday when I'm happy, it will haunt me once more...
And my dream of true happiness, just faded away in the distance...

I guess I'm not living in an ideal life where everything's perfect...
Nor I could get what I want...
No matter how hard you try, you always get disappointed...
So why do we try?
We try cause there's never a time where there's totally no hope...
Even a glimmer of hope is enough to change something bad into good...
And while others say, the higher you fly the harder you fall...
I say, the harder you fall, the more you'll appreciate getting back up and flying again...

So the moral of the story...
Don't be like me...
Take so long just to recover...
I should be ashamed of myself...
For disturbing people and feeling sorry for myself...
I realise that now...
Life's too short for all that...
Live life like everyday's gonna be your last...
Appreciate people around you...
Call/sms people who you haven't talked to for a long time...
Apologise for your mistakes even if you didn't do anything wrong...
Be open to your thoughts and feelings and share it with others...
That way life will carry more meaning...

I have no idea why I said all that...
But yar...
I need to find my inner peace again...
Lost it in June somehow...
But it won't be too difficult with friends around...=]

And and and...
I realise...
No one really talks about what I write in my blog...
Cause no one bothers reading word for word...
So even if I talk about people, they won't see it...
Then occasionally I get people asking me if I'm alright or not...
It's a subjective question...
But I'm honest, so I'll always say I'm not...
But somehow, I get the feeling they ask for the sake of asking...
I don't mind...
At least got people show that they care...
Even though it seems so superficial...

Anyways...
I think I've written alot already...
So I'll end off here...
Can't wait for tomorrow!
First of JULY!
Take carez people!
Have a nice day tml!

"Will YOU be there for me?"

Zupz Zupz!