Cause she deserves my whole hearted support.
Hello all! =]
Gosh, ok, I haven't blog for ages...
Sorry for that...
And I dunno where to start also...
It's been, a very busy few weeks...
Been going out quite often also...
I owe them that much cause I haven't been going out with them...
So yar...
Ok let's just try to recall stuff which...I might remember...
Music Theory Grade 5 Exam results...
I dunno what I'm supposed to feel to be honest..
Before getting the results, all I know was that I passed...
For some, passing would be a joyful thing...
But you know I'm weird and such... My piano cher sms-ed to tell me I passed...
And I asked her "Pass only?"
Her reply was "Then u want fail ar?"
So I just... Felt very sad...
Then the next day I went to take my results...
Half felt a sense of anticipation, half felt a sense of disappointment...
Then when I was handed my results, and saw "98" written there...
I didn't know what to feel, I wanted to be happy, but I was confused...
*like how I'm confused right now, but that's not important*
So till when I got my results till now, I don't know what I'm supposed to feel...
Schoolwise...
Mostly focused now on projects...
And lab test...
Shitz, I haven't studied yet...
Been slacking the past few days...
Hmmmm....
Ferrero Roche is very nice...
Hmmmm....
Oh, I've been spending the whole day alone today...
And been sleeping alone at home for the past 2 nights...
Of course it's been lonely...
But I guess that's how it's gonna be when you're all alone huh fiq...
It's ok, I'll get through this alone...
Cause I'm strong! Rawrs!
heh, who am I try'na kid...
On the other hand, who cares too...
Be it win-win or lose-lose situation, it doesn't really matter...
It's inevitable...
Friends come and go...
Others come back cause they have something they want from you, and they disappear again...
It's a vicious cycle, a way of life....
Deal with it...
Can see my thoughts are random huh...
Speaking of random...
I've been eye-ing on this phone..
Nokia 5800 Express Music...
I even dream about it yesterday night...
Gosh I'm obsessed with that phone...=X
One day I shall get that phone...one day...
Sometimes I think my life is kinda sad...
In search of truth, one will only find hurt...
But the hurt is just an obstacle towards uncovering the whole picture...
That small steps of courage towards an endless race towards the finish...
Sometimes just doesn't make any sense or has any direction...
We just do what seems right to us despite our surroundings...
Venting angers, hiding tears, triumphant of victories...
But we don't see what we've gained from them...
Those endless amounts of memories and experience...
What did we gain?
I thought we were close...
And there wasn't anyone who's closer to you than me...
I tried to believe all this was true...
But forgive me for having doubts about you...
Being the Amiable that I am...
All I want is the happiness of others and the best for all relations...
Sometimes at the cost of my own...
But it's ok...
I shouldn't take it too personally...
You've grown, you have your own mindset, your own set of values...
Who am I to say what you should or shouldn't do...
All I can do is support you...
My best friend, are you truly my best friend?
Or is there some other secrets that you hide from me...
Not that I want to pry open, but I thought it's only mutual?
Maybe our mindsets were never the same from the start...
Maybe...maybe...may....be...
All I can do is hope... hope you're being true...
It's true that what is not asked, is not answered...
But I'm too afraid to ask, so I won't...
So much for being the social specialist...
Awesome...
I'm a wreck all by my own accord...
Oh well...
It will blow over me I guess...
So that's all for now...
Take care people!
Oh and...
Happy Chinese New Year. =]
Good nightz and sweet dreamz!
*Let me be...*
Zupz Zupz!
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