Dear Bloggie....

Harlow harlow!!!! Hehezz...
I juz finished eating, See Jihan, I kept ur promise ok...
Hehez... =D
Anywayz.... Yea, on with my blog..... Yea I'm hurt....
Deeply hurt..... Izzit juz me, or do I have a knife in my heart....
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Ok, itz juz me.... Sheesh......
Well.... I've been hurt deeply two times.....
Last year was once... And dis year another time....
And sumhow, it feels like d same ting....
Repeated over again.... Sumtimes I tink 2 myself...
Am I jinxed? Suay-ed.... Coz I noe I'm not perfect..
But I treat pple right.... Sumhow I dun understand wat I'm getting back...
Is dis called overly-emotional? I have feelings....
Even animals have feelings too... We get hurt... We get happy....
Itz all in d cause of responding to emotions....
If a stranger slaps u in d face for no reason... How would u feel?
Not dat I'm saying anyone slapped me la...
Juz for an example... U wouldn't juz ignore rite?
*Well, actually I would la....*
Most pple would juz shout back or slap back....
These shows dat we are responding back.....

Sometimes tings are not as straight-forward as it seems.....
Life... Hope... Trust... Fate......
If u ask a million pple to explain it.....
U'll get back a million type of answers.....
Coz all dat are called Opinions.....
No two pple could have d same type of opinion at d same time...
Cuz everyone is different... Juz like me and u...
We are not d same... How could we.... Ur not me...
I'm not u.... *BTW cloning is ILLEGAL*
But watz d same could be d heart.....
Datz how u get d word "love".....
Itz a very very strong word... Trust me.....
Now I'm scared to use it... Cuz it hurtz....
Well maybe now to me it does... Cuz I'm experiencing d downside of love....
Try to remember dose sweet moments.....
And ask urself if love hurtz.... u'd probably say "datz propostorous!"
And wen u broken and battered... And I ask u d same ting....
U'd probably say dat itz true......

Love is innocent... Itz how u see it and d way u feel it....
How u handle it, how u make it glow.....
How u make d passion burning...... Even in d coldest of winters....
Love and relationships have a connection..... But they are not d same....
Relationships need love to survive...... Is dat true?
To me it is... But to me, relationships need 2 be built....
NO, not with bricks or cement or nails or wood.....
But with Trust... Care... Concern.... and importantly Love...
Oh yar, and understanding....
For me.. I tried building dis type of relationship....
Two times oleady... And dat failed miserably.....
To dose two hu i've had relationships with.....
I'm sorry... I'm very very sorry.....
I tried d best dat I can... But I gez u didn't see me d way I am....
And so u've moved on with another guy.....
I see ur happy... I'm fine with it......
Sumhow I believe there are much more better guys out there....
More good looking... More understanding....
100 times better den me....
So I'm juz sitting here... Waiting n waiting... for sumone to like me for hu I am....
Apart from my jokes, my laughter, my voice, maybe even my name....
See thru my appearence and look into my heart....
I dunno wat u'll see la, maybe red blood cells?
Apart from d red blood cells... U'll find many tings...
Sum good, sum bad... At least, accept me for hu I am....
I'm broken twice.... And I dun tink I'm able to have a third...
*ceh, cam nak ader anak g2 seh, hahakz... ishq!*
I wanna feel loved again... But I'm not desperate mind u....
Juz wish I could find u... Haiz..... Well...
I gotta wake up my idea and start looking at reality...
Dose will all juz be a dream, dat will nv come true....

But but butttttttt... not buttocks hor.....
I still got my frenz.... And like I said, I'm rich....
Very rich to have dem.... =D
Yupz yupz!
So dun worry hor frenz, I still remember u guyz....
And I hope u all remember Fiqz also hor hor horrrr... =X
*Ishq, like no shame liddat seh....sheesh =P*
So yea..... Datz all I wanna------ NO WAIT! hahakz...
Jeng jeng jengggg........

SYF in 12 more dayz time!!!!! Hahakz...
Finally... yes yes yes!!!! Heez...
So happy manz.... And on dis friday I going to S'pore Conf Hall...
Again.. For d 2nd rehearsal... SO yeaz.....
I tink itz full dressed.. hahakz, Let d s'pore flags out yea? =P
Ngee Ann Concert band Spirit!!!!!
I tink we should have a mascot for band.....
Hmmmmm... How about a singing bird?
Hahakz... Weirdy me... Sheesh....
Anywayz.... Yeaz..... Hoping for a gold...
But I noe can onli get silver....
Juz hope for dat gold la ar.. Hahakz....

Hmmz... K la... Fiqz now dunno wat 2 do.... hahakz....
Nv will be bored again.. muahaha... =P...
So yeaz.... Btw, school 2day was kinda boring ar...
had Chemistry test which I tink I'm gonna fail...
So yeaz, no point also.. hahakz...
Oh yar! The three months admission to JC using prelim can be used again!!
Hahakz.. But niwaes, I aint going into a JC, I aint dat clever la hor...
I'll be happy ta get in TP... =D
Temasek Poly Rawkz!!! Woohoooooz!
TaufiQQQQQQ Rawkz!!!! I rawk! no, i stone... =P
Bluekz....

Ok la... Datz all.. Tankz for reading my crappy blog... Hahakz.. I lurve myself... U all take carez aightz! Takkairz all!!! Love u frenz lotz lotz! =D Bybyezzzzz

*Light bulbs would nv have been invented if a guy didn't try his 19999th time in inventing it... So please, dun give up in life, try over n over, d answer will come slowly....*

Zupz Zupz!