Dear Bloggie...

Hey hey hey hey heyz!!!! Hahakz....
Wazzup wazzup ya peeps out there?
Enjoying ur lives?
I really hope so.. Hahakz...
Well, like any human being on earth.....
I have my ups and my downs......
Recently.. I've been faced alot alot alot of my downs..Haiz...
From mental to emotional breakdown....
I sumtimes have no time for self-pity....

So basically, I'll juz talk abt most of my problems ar....
I really appriciate it if no one talks abt these problems to me...
So yea, I tank u pple again for not bringing it up kz....
So datz cleared out... Now for my problems....

Sumtimes I get occasional problems....
Well, most of us do rite?
But itz like... Very very recently.....
I'm not gonna point fingers and say "ah u! u !@@%@#@"....
No point in doing dat animore... I'm getting sick...
No one noes my condition of health now....
For those hu are close to me, do not be shocked...
I'll explain 2 u sum other time... So please stay calm.....
Yupz... Love really does hurts huh.....
Well, stupid me for waiting for a fruit datz not gonna fall into my hands....
So yea, lesson learnt, instead of calling it sour grapes....
I'd juz move on and stop waiting.....
Many would say "she's not worth it la" or any crap like dat....
I aint gonna listen 2 dat... Cuz onli I noe her for hu she is...
She has her reasons.... I must respect dat......
Like I said, if fate doesn't happen dis time....
It'll happen to me next time... Muz be patient....
Yupz.... Okaiyz.... Datz settled.....Well, not really, haiz...
Ahhhh nvm... Hmmmz.....

And we move on to more problems....
2nd on my problem list which made me cry was my English marks....
I cried in my heart silently manz.....
I was seriously sad.... I couldn't move, I couldn't eat, I couldn't talk....
I was motionless..... Such a bad result I had for my compre....
My heart continued to break even more......
How much more of these beatings do I have to suffer.....
How much more do I have 2 persevere and endure all dis....
Haiz... Please God, I pray to u, give me the strength......=[....
I really got a knock on my head wen I failed dat paper....
From a big english hotshot, to dis loser in english.....
I realise my mistakes... And I wun repeat these mistakes.... ever....

The 3rd problem.... Which really made me sobber...
Was the fact dat I'm getting much much much more lonely in school....
Haiz.... Am I different now? Do I look fierce or anti-social....
Last time in recess time, I have frenz....
Now I sit all by myself muching on my food like a stranger.....
I keep telling myself, "only afew more months fiq..."
Budden, is dat how long I'm gonna suffer thru these months?
But I take comfort in the words of my true frenz....
Who will always be in my heart at all times.....
And remind me constantly that i'm not alone....
But my stubborn heart keeps telling myself dat I've been abandoned...
Wy fiqz? WY?.... I ask questions i can't answer....
Wy do I bring pple up onli 2 realise they bring me down and i let dem down...
I juz can't answer these questions animore....
I dowan 2 find any answers animore.....
Sumhow, I gave up on everyting except the frenz dat I have....
Frenz are too important to lose.....

The 4th problem.... My maths......
Wah... My heart seriously kena whacked damn heart......
I noe I'm good at maths.. I noe I can do maths....
MATHS IS EASY FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!
But... I onli got a miserable B3 for maths.....='[
Omg...... Haiz.... I was careless here and there and everywhere....
The mistakes I made before repeated.....
How long more must i torture myself dis way huh?
Haiz..... I'm juz broken... U wanna see me broken rite?
U can laugh at me all u want kz.. I'm down......
Hmmmmz.... Yupz.......
I dunno how in the world this heart is gonna be repaired...
It seems merely impossible to do so now.....
I'm juz broken, by my own stupidity and judgements.....
Where's the superhero in me to save me now.....
From all these beatings of life.....
How much more worse am I gonna be beaten up?
Looking at d rate I'm going... I might end up in the drain....
All alone sitting quietly in one corner of a train....
A train which is bringing me closer to more pain.....
I'm surprised to the fact that i haven't faint.....
I just feel like jumping down from a plane.....
Jumping without a parashoot and fall out from all these negative fame...

Actually i seriously have much more problems.......
Too much problems which have destroyed my heart completely....
Just talking abt it juz makes me cry wailing to myself.....
No point in talking abt it animore....
Haiz............

*life, sumtimes might look greener on the other side........*

"how could you just forget about me....."
"how could I just let myself down....."
"how could I let you down...."
"why did I lose my mind over you...."
"why do you appear in my dreams....."
*Broken answers from the heart which has crumpled love-letters.....peace.....*

Zupz Zupz!