Dear Bloggie...

I'm seriously having a bad day manz...
Haiz...
Btw, for those reading my blog, I nv ever intend seeking sympathy or pity from anyone...
So readers, keep all dis discreet infront of me please...

I just came back home from going out with my friends....
Yupz...
Was kinda fun ar...
I went out with Liyana, Huda, Siqin, Alfi and Salihin....
At 1st we went to Bugis, coz alfi and huda wanted to buy bag ar....
we waited for so long manz.. Sheesh....
Itz like dem making bags...
Anywayz... After dat, we went to Makan at Banquet of Raffles Hospital...
Me and salihin bought Mee Wantan...
Huda, Alfi and Siqin bought nasi ayam....
And Liyana bought carrot cake...
Even though I was d 1st to start eating, eventually I was d last to finish...
So yea, I eat SLOW...
And throughout our meal, I suan Siqin...
Hahakz... Suan until she wanna give up manz....
I'm not gonna say HOW i suan her la...
Later she malu.. =X
So yea...
Anywayz...
After eating, we left for the place where dey bought d bag..
Coz huda's bag had some diformaties....
And she wanted to change it....
Luckily it didn't take quite long...
While dey were changing d bag...
Me, Siqin, liyana and salihin thought of where to go next....
In the end we thought of Tampines...
1stly coz Alfi wanted to buy sumting at Popular....
Me Liyana and Salihin went into yamaha and took a look around...

I looked at the mouthpieces...
And guess wat....
there was onli ONE euphonium mouthpiece left....
And that costs $110....
I'm like.. WTF?
The rest were T-bone mouthpieces costing 60 odd..
Bias to the Euphoniums manz.. tsk3....
Nvm nvm....
From Tampines mall, we went to Challenger....
We went there coz Liyana wanted to find sumting for her router...
And she found it, called her dad and we were off....
Home.... =D
It wasn't so direct..
We didn't quite directly went home...
Itz a long story ar, malas sak nak type...
Hahakz.. =X
Ok... I took 39 home....
And here I am now.. Infront of d comp!

So yeaz...
Why am I feelin down?
Actually.. I aint clear to wat I'm feelin rite now...
I'm askin myself, am I in love?
To sumone hu doesn't care abt me? Datz just not a true logic.....
I'm falling into sumting which i told myself not to....
seriously, I'm confused....
Guess the onli way to solve dis is to write a poem....
So here goes....

North south east west...
This will put ur sense of direction to the test...
Left right front back....
Hold on tightly to what u believe coz u'll get off track...

Reading maps of the heart seems to be easy....
But when a third party steps in, everything starts getting greasy...
Confused in manipulations of truths and lies...
Hoping for the best, trying to hold on to strong ties...

My life is nothing more than how music flows....
When things gets sweet, I'll take things close....
I still feel doubtful of myself making decisions...
Even to the extent to breaking off my relations...

Tears of emptiness flow down my cheek and collects on my chin...
Though there's a smile of my face which never looks so keen...
Memories of the recent past still lingers in my mind...
Every single detail, every single word...I can nv leave behind....

Some people may tell me its too good to be true...
But I still believed in her, dat was all dat I do...
Just to find out I was wrong a million times over...
That I'm just nothing to her...

So now, I'm bringing myself up the courage that i've always had....
Forcing myself to put all this behind, nv wanting to be sad...
Picking up strength for something new...
Just like the saying goes, every morning there will be drops of dew....

Fiqz. outz...

ZupZ ZupZ!