Dear Bloggie...

*Am I still childish NOW?! heh.*

While clearing my room the other day...
I stumbled upon a note from my Maths teacher in Sec 4...
As many of you know, I took O level maths in Sec 4, but I was a NA student...
Ok then I read the note...
It really motivated me alot...
So I'll share with everyone of you...=]

Learning isn't easy...
Frustration tends to set in quickly...
You're hurt...
You feel defeated...
You want to give up, to quit...
You want to walk away, and pretend it doesn't matter...
But you won't,
Because you're not a loser,
You're a fighter...
We all have to lose sometimes before we can win...
We have to cry sometimes before we can smile...
We have to be hurt, before we can be strong...
But if you keep on working and believing..
You'll have victory in the end.
-Ann Davies

Thank you Ms Chua, even though I gotten only B4 for maths that year...
You showed me I could improve and got a B3 the year after...
I'll always remember the things you told me...=]

Somehow I can't help but to look back to the past and see what I've done...
What I've actually accomplished...
Well, some more prominent then others...
Others more of UNaccomplished...
From the day I started school in Primary One...
How naive was I, and I'm sure most of you were too...
To be the best in class, to be liked by others, to be popular...
And everytime teachers ask me about my goal, or dream...
I would just answer with a simple shrug of my shoulder...
But they persisted on me having a dream...
In the end I still didn't have any...

I never understood what the meaning of "dreams" were back then...
Trust me, I was 100 times way more Noob then any noobshit back then...
And I was so nerd till I made it look as though other nerds were actually cool...
Of course I've had my own fair share of friends...
Many of which were part time and would stab me at the back for no apparent reason...
Like I said, Naive.
I remembered faking my sickness so I don't have to hand in homework...
I would wear a jacket on a freaking hot sunny day just to prove the point that I was having a fever...
And back then we didn't have handphones, so we had to use pay phones in school...
I remembered going down to the pay phone, was so ready to call my mom to pick me up...
But I couldn't remember my home phone...
And I had to walk all the way back up to the classroom to ask people who knows my home number...

And who could ever forget the "Buddy System"...
More like babysit system or something...
When I was in Pri 6, I had to babysit one of the Pri 1 students...
It was more of, just making sure he didn't do anything stupid...
Cause by that time, Pri 1 kids were devils trapped in a small body...
I had to run around the school during recess just to catch my buddy...
By the time recess ended, I was being booked for being late for class cause of him...
I tried to not care about him, but I was booked for not caring and being a irresponsible senior...
Trust me, my primary school life sucked as I got the blame for tonnes of stuff...

But the sweetest thing was...
My name being called to get those bursary awards stuff which I never knew I had won...
The worse part was...
I was practically dozing off when they called my name...
Like COME ON, imagine listening to like 100 names being called one by one...
The first few was ok cause we were like clapping and stuff...
But it got tiring and I eventually got bored and slept...
My friends told me that I nearly didn't get the award...
And that I had a sleepy face while shaking the Principal's hand...
So much for Model Student, heh.

In Pri 4, I will never ever forget this one teacher of mine, Mrs Goh...
She was like one caring mother...
Always kena nagging by her...
But I guess it's ok...
Most of the time, I got nagged for my atrocious handwritting...
And to be honest, my handwritting still looks freaking untidy...
I got weak fingers, stop provoking me.

One of the PE lesson...
During the Digimon craze...
I took out my Digimon and it got confiscated by Mr Stephen...
He's a cool dude, but instant enemy as he confiscated my Digimon...
And the lesson after that was English, and it was my form teacher's class...
And I wanted my Digimon back really badly...
The month was July...
So this sinister mind of mine came up with something...
Turned my smile upside down and act not happy...
Then I told people it was my birthday...
When it really wasn't...
So this friend told that friend, that friend told the other friend...
Till it eventually reached the teacher...
The teacher stopped the lesson and asked the class to sing for me a bday song...
After that, she took out my Digimon and told me "Next time don't bring ok?"...
And I swear I gave the most innocent+sad face and said "Ok cher....."...

Back then, having a Digimon was like owning a PS3 now...
Like I said before, I wanted popularity...
So I guess that was one of the ways...heh.

Being a nerd in Pri school would only mean I was damn Guai...
So that means...
I was scared to go against authority...
There was once I played a fool during the National Anthem...
And I was spotted...
My punishment was to sing the National Anthem by myself the next day...
I was so scared, I kept singing the whole song in my head like Imeem put on repeat....
I told my mom about it, and the next day she followed me to school to talk to the teacher...
Boy was I relieved when she dropped charges on me...
Just for the record, I have no idea why I'm talking about pri sch right now...
But hey, it's kinda interesting laughing at the noob I was...=]

In Pri 6...
There was this trip to Melaka...
That time I had a huge crush on this someone...
And every single time that I had...
I'd be looking for her...
But I guess to her, I was just some noob...
So she won't notice me...
I remembered changing my shirt on the bus just after we left the immagration place...
Cause we were in school PE when we reported in school...
Don't ask why I changed, to get in the mood maybe?
First place I went was this pineapple plantation...
And there was this super small yellow cute pineapple...
Ok nothing interesting there...

Then we went for dinner at some restaurant...
The whole time I was looking at her...
Of course I did it discretely...
Till my friend told me to stop staring...
And no, my mouth wasn't opened during that time...
I was only TWELVE for goodness sake...
After dinner, went back to the hotel room...
I had 4 other roomates...
There was this moment where the four of them went out and I stayed in the room...
Just say I didn't have the feeling of going out...
Then they went out and left the latch on which meant the door was still open...
So I unlatched the door and locked it...
Afew mins later, I heard screams, something like "CHER COMING!!!!!"...
My roomates were practically banging on the door...
And I opened the door...
And boy were they relieved when I opened the door...
And for a night, I was treated like royalty...
That night, before going to bed, we would make weird noises...
And I was the last one with "BOM!", pretty hilarious which stopped us from sleeping...

Shall not continue about the whole trip to Melaka...
Cause my head can't remember alot of things already...
The most I could remember was my head was filled with looking at her...
Boy was I naive... =X

Ok I've typed alot already...
Mostly those I can remember...
Maybe next time will talk about my Sec school life...
From a Noobshit to a Non-Noobshit...wow...
Ok thanks for reading, and hope that you're entertained...=]
Take carez everyone! =D
Sometimes, what hurts so bad is actually good for you. =]
I wanna be who I am once more.

Last but not least, Happy Birthday Singapore, in advanced.
I think I'm sick of people wearing red, can people wear white instead? SHEESH...
Makes me wonder if they're supporting the Beijing Olympics instead...
Eight dot Eight dot Zero Eight....
Nice number huh... =]
The day Fiqz actually grew up...
Ok gotta go now, byez people! =]

"Cause sometimes, we forget the things that means so much to us..."

Zupz Zupz!