i'm mentally sick

Dear Bloggie...

i'm mentally sick.

Harlow all.

Grah...

Feeling shitty...

And the magnitude is just too big to control...

Not my first time breaking down...

I guess the reality of things is slapping my face and I finally grown out of the numbness and could actually feel it...

And it hurts, REALLY BAD...

Can someone stop it from slapping me again?

I think my face is slapped beyond recognition already...

Sorry for sounding depressed...

I'm just sick and tired of alot of BS...

And to think of it, most of the BS is what I got myself into...

See where I am now, smartass...

Grah...

No point blaming anything or anything about it...

Nothing will change, I'll be stagnant like a piece of shit...

Today was a hella boring day...

I came late for practical...

And barely after 10 mins, I'm off...

LIKE WTF?!

It was just revision from last week's lab...

And being the "class rep" makes me obliged to collect money and order the books...

And if things don't happen, I get the blame...

SMART LA!

You want the book, then never bug me for it, think one brain enough to remember izzit?!

Then there's lecture...

Seriously...

My insides immediately just died, I couldn't feel a pulse in me...

It was DEAD boring...

Trust me, I DID try to stay awake and concentrate...

But it was just too boring that I just switched off...

Haiz...

FREAK LA!

I just can't stand the teaching...

Next time I'm gonna tap and go ar, fuck that manz...

I'm sick of the nonsense...

Rather study myself...

Went home...

Somehow "home" doesn't feel like "home" at all...

It's a place to breed headaches and PISS-FULL sleeps...

I planned on waking up at 9am...

But I was interupted by wailing and screaming and GOD-KNOWS-WHAT...

I AM JUST NOT READY LAAAAA!! ='[

BRING BACK THE PEACEFUL MORNING PLEASEEEEEEE!!!!

Ah shut up la fiq...

No point, no one understands...

This would probably show people you're WEAK...

So what FOR...

Sheesh...

Haiz...

I hate this.

Zupz Zupz!