We're not Broken, Just Bent

It has been tough
No doubt, you threw me away like a broken toy
But I don't blame you
I admit I am broken
Maybe just unfixable by you

I appreciate all the effort you took, you tried, for me
It's my fault for asking for too much, demanding for attention
I had no right
I am sorry
I never thought you'd ever leave
Oh contraré, I'm the one that took you for granted

But why did you have to leave?
Shut me off like I was nothing
I admit I wanted to run away, forget everything
But you're better at that than me
How you simply ignore and push away things which holds painful memories
How you make yourself believe nothing happend
Like a distant dream, nightmare

I envy you
The ability to just shut those people who meant something to you
Standing tall like nothing ever affected you
You used to say I was strong, no
No I am not, you're stronger
For running away, not looking back
But hey, as the saying goes, you can't chase your future when your eyes are still focusing on the past
Which can only mean I'm part of your past now, where I truly rightfully belong
I should never have entered your life to begin with
Knowing the damage I'll cause

If I had a time machine, I'd stop myself from knowing you
Knowing the hurt I would do to you
Knowing how disappointed you would be with me
Knowing I'd eventually lose you

But we both know that's impossible
Now I've gotta live with this unforgivable guilt I'll hold in my heart through my life time
I will need to learn to trust again
Learn to believe again
Learn to love again
Cause being scarred like this wasn't what I ever thought of
I thought I treated you well, you were always my top most priority
I guess I was just too over bearing...

I don't even dare to read your blogs anymore
Which was also why I deleted you off on all my accounts
That night when you said good bye, my heart just shattered
I wanted to ignore your text and just let it end that way
But it wouldn't be fair, so all I could say is that it's probably for the best
Thinking about how you've already had such great friends who have been with you for years
I'm probably just some random guy who felt stupidly felt special being around you
The one that's expendable

Why did I even fell for this
I should have seen the signs
I was blind
Just so stupidly blind

Well there's really no point in continuing this as you won't even be reading this piece of crap
And by this piece of crap, I mean me
So run along then
The "heart" I gave to you, please just smash it till it eventually stop ringing
Cause mine has turned cold.