Rebirth

Dear Bloggie,

As she rose up from the deep, spreading her wings shaking off those ash, she darts towards the sun.

Sup people!

As you can see, my blog is receiving some changes in terms of style and format.

This is all thanks to one special person who deserves it, Guo Junzhu aka Junnieer.

She squeezed her creative brain power to come up with what you see now.

I'm honestly in amazement.

The picture you see up there, is a picture of a sunset she photographed from her house.

This holds some significance.

This blog holds a huge part of history of my life.

The ups, the downs, the upside-downs and the inside outs.

This blog has been with me for literally 10 years already, and I've been sticking on to the same thing.

Fiqz was an idea, an inspiration.

When I was younger, I always knew there was this part of me called Fiqz.

This idea was later used to represent many aspects of who I am.

For example, just pronouncing it would sound FIX, which I love so much to fix things.

Be it listening to other people's problems, fixing a leaking tap, get friends to work things out.

This is a part of me.

The interesting part of Fiqz, was that it was accidental.

During my primary and secondary days, I used to be quite sporty(what has happened since them I have no idea =p).

But there was this particular thing I did quite well, and that was sprinting.

I challenged myself each time, every time.

Improving my timing everytime.

And at that time, my inspiration was a cartoon character, which I still adore up till now.

He's none other than, The Flash.

Witty, quick, thinking on his feet, occasionally make mistakes from being stubborn, but makes the best out of it.

These attributes, I quickly got accustomed to.

So I was thinking, how do I portray that attribute in my name.

As I was thinking, I was watching an episode of The Flash, and when he sprints off, there would be a trail of Zs...

So I just thought, well, let's just add a Z behind my name then.

And it began, Taufiqz.

No.

Something just didn't sound right there.

Tauz? O.o?

Hell no.

Fiqz.

Fiqz...

Ah. That sounds much better.

And so it began, this journey of Fiqz.

From this humble beginnings, I went out helping others.

Getting hurt along the way too.

But that was just a small rock that I stumbled upon.

It made me stronger.

I fell, I bruised, I scarred, I broke down, I obliterated myself...

My limbs were sore, my heart cracked, my spirit broken...

I dug deep...

I believed in those around me...

Those who betrayed me, I pitied them...

Cause I'm getting stronger without them.

My limbs got stronger, my heart got a major upgrade, my spirit unbreakable...

But..

My oh my....

Love came along knocking on the door...

Infused with my caring nature and the reflex of helping people...

That door was more of a doorway, there wasn't any door there...

I learnt to trust, to felt wanted, sense of security, sense of belonging...

I too learnt, the gnawing pain behind being too trusting...

It enters you like a hot knife through butter straight through your heart...

That gave me a wake up call...

What is this? What is Love?

So this has been the question I've been seeking since then.

True Love.

This magical idea.

Does it exist? Touch your heart.

Cause I believe it does.

Anyways, I'm digressing.

Yesterday, It was time Fiqz evolved into something more inquisitive.

FIQuisitive.

*JUN!!!! FIQuisitive can mah? sounds good leh... or Finquisitive...hmmm...*

So yea, Fiqz is/will be evolving.

Haven't officially decided yet.

Like I said, Evolving, not put to rest.

I do not condone the death of my own character.

A part of me still lives, breathes Fiqz...

But there's a need for more forward momentum instead of feeding off from the past.

Let us walk towards this future we have and make the best we can along the way...

For those who don't know who Jun is, well, she's basically, me. =]

The resemblance in our character and attitude is simply uncanny.

Just that she's more creative oriented than me, and I'm more language based.

But even that, is quite debatable.

Alright so this is my first update after a long hiatus...

Will try my best to make this blog more interesting...

With poems.. Life's lessons... And some other shit...

Pictures, yes, definitely...

With that I am thankful to know someone like you Jun.

Thank you.

*Love needs to be tried, tested, failed, broken, destroyed...After going through all that, if it still survives, then that, is True Love*

With Love,

Taufiq