Dear Bloggie...

Ahh...
Hear that? Thought so...

Something on my mind from yesterday night....
Love, Luxury or Necessity?
I mean, surely it will differ from one to another...
But what do you think?

What does luxury means?
Something inessential but conducive to pleasure and comfort.
Something expensive or hard to obtain.
Sumptous living or surroundings; lives in luxury.
So these are the meanings to luxury...
Now, is love inessential to me?
How can something be inessential but conducive to pleasure and comfort?
And I'm not saying that something I don't understand is wrong...
But I value love...
It goes beyond luxury...
I believe love is fragile and it just comes...
True it's hard to obtain, but that's why it's meaningful...

Now we'll look at Necessity...
The condition or quality of being necessary.
The state of fact of being in need.
Now ask yourself...
Do you need love?
How important it is to you...
To clearly understand why I'm acting the way I am...
Please take a moment to absorb how much I treasure love...
Being someone who's driven by people's comfort...
My only fear is being alone...
True, I might not be as independant as many people...
But by being dependant on others...
It blooms a mutual trust and understanding with others...
Cause I believe, one must not be too independant driven...
But also not too dependant on others till it becomes a habit...

I'm a people's person...
I'm a busy body...
Or so they say...
But many find me as a concerned friend...
Or also, I'm too nice...
Which in turn makes me too naive...
Whatever the reasons are...
Is the world that polluted that being nice is a crime...
Is falling in love a crime?
Cause I've been in love before...
And I found that love was more then just, holding hands...
But it caused alot of pain in myself and others as well...
Why must this happen to me...

Please understand my character...
Do you even know me?
Have I changed too suddenly...
Or maybe I'm just a blind fool who thought things would be different this time...
Even though my head told me it's not right...
Then why does my heart feels so right...
Sometimes, I just wish you'd love me more then a just a friend...
But I guess I was just too stupid...
For wishing the impossible from you...
And I sincerely apologise for appearing in your life like this...
But if you want us to be friends...
I'm fine with it...
But remember this...
I can forgive, but I'll never forget...


Ok that's off my chest...
Now I can sleep soundly in the night...
NOT!
With this leg that's killing me...
I shall go see doc tomorrow...
Depends on whether I can still walk...
So yar...
I should be doing my theory papers now...
Or even work on my MAD project...
But I'm not...
No mood la...

Okok fine, at 12pm I'll start doing my theory...
I have no idea where my discipline comes from...
But I guess, it's the burning passion for something...
And if I want something so bad...
I'm gonna work hard for it...
Namely, love...
If you can't see it, then that's just too bad... =]

Ok I'm off, gonna watch some vids or something...
So take carez people!
And I hope you liked the pics...
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"So it seems there wasn't a WE to begin with, it was all about you..."

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