Dear Bloggie...

Why can't I do anything right...

Anywayz...
Woke up as usual...
Went to school...
Wasn't doing anything much productive...
Other then staring at my laptop screen...
Next week gotta hand in prototype program...
So not ready for that...
It seems I'm not ready for anything...
All those planning...
All gone to waste...
Back to square one plus a huge ass disappointment with it...
Life does suck so bad, I second that sis...

Went to clementi for lunch...
Ate prata with cheese and egg...
Felt super sleepy...
Was half awake as I talked to Iskandar...
Talked about changing specs...
Ok lets drop the topic...

Then went back to school for lecture...
Listened to the first half...
The second half spent editting the new blogskin...
It's not ready yet, hence the unchanged bloskin...
Lesson ended...
Went back...

On the way back...
It was around 4pm...
I was still deciding whether or not I should come for band...
Now I know, that it isn't worth it...
I was practically useless, like how I've ever was...
So just stood there listening to them...
Seeing the eupho section get beat up like that...
I wanted to be angry with them, but I'm just too disappointed with myself...
I guess nothing productive ever comes from me...
I just suck...
At everything...

And to all that I've asked so enthusiastically to come my concert...
I take it all back...
If you got something on that day you don't have to come for my stupid concert...
If it's so troublesome for you to go for my concert, please, I'd be happier if you don't come...
Cause, I'm not that worth it to support anyway...
And you guys don't owe me anything...
And besides, 6 bucks is alot of money which I think you'd better save for buying food...
Cause I'm not worth it...

To those who sincerely want to come support me...
I thank you all...
And to those who really can't come...
I understand your situation...
I know if you have the chance, you will come...
Sincerely from all my heart, thank you...
And I hope to see your faces on 27th July...

And of course, I'll work very hard for the concert...
In hopes of making it the greatest concert I've ever performed in...
It's gonna be a very, emotional night for me, somehow...
And what better way to spend it with the people who care....=]

I'm not sad...
Even though my tone persist otherwise...
I'm just disappointed with myself...
And, don't pity me, please...
Keep your sympathy...
I just need to pick myself back up again...
I guess I'm pressured abit too much now...

And cliff, I'm sorry...

"I'm gonna try hiding my true feelings cause they are just too destructive..."

Zupz Zupz!