Dear Bloggie...

Why are you keeping a distant from me...

Woke up today at around 9am+...
Already said I'll pon my tutorials....
Of which I did...
Feels good to wake up late...
After a very late night...
At around 11.45am, went to Tampines Mart...
To get my new specs...
Then took 291 to interchange...

Slept all the way till Dover...
Then reached at around 1.05pm...
The lecturer was briefing everyone on the 3rd assignment...
After that, it was consultation on assignment two...
I showed him my megazine cover...
He gave me some pointers...
I did it, and gosh it now looks stunning...
Not that I look stunning, cause I look like crap...
So I'm done with the cover, and I gotta do a 200 word write up...
Sian...
Remind self to buy CDs to burn the file...
And as for my 3rd assignment...
I gotta bring three ideas for next lesson...
I'm gonna do Colourful, Dark and Nature...
And if possible I'll do Elements too...
That also requires some write up...
So I guess...
Super sian can...

After class, met Shermeen...
She passed me my bday present...
THANK YOU! =D
And I was off home...
Reached home and straight away went online...

Gosh I have a very short day today...
Maybe cause I woke up late...
But hey, it was a really nice break...
If I went to school in the morning..
I'll be super shagged...
Good decision in ponning lessons...
Might be doing the same thing for next week's tutorials also...
Plus I got rehearsals on Wednesday from 6pm to 10pm...
At SP convention centre...
Will be super shagged the next day...

Ok so...
Friday will go back NAS...
For the LMP thingy...
Teach those kids some mass dance thingy...
Then will be passing out certs/cards of participation...
Luckily I don't have band on Friday...
But on Saturday I got SPband at 2.30pm...
Still thinking whether or not I should go for NASband's morning band prac...
Still thinking...
Oh and i'll be alone at home on Saturday and Sunday as my parents going overseas...
My uncle actually called me personally to make me go...
But I really can't...
I'm sorry..

I miss my eupho..
Can I go back to Sec 2 again...
Even though I had an irritating senior back then called Jian Wei...
Life wasn't too complicated...
Go band, practice on eupho, go home, buzz, eat, shit, sleep...DONE...
I had peace with my Eupho...
It was, fun...
But now...
I decided to put myself in alot of shit...
Do things for people...
Get stepped on countless of times...
For what...
I can't even find salvation in the one's I trust...

I know I've been a bad boy before....
And I know I deserve this punishment....
But please give me a chance to be a good boy, if not, better...
Make me a better person...
I really wanna be a better person...
But life has been throwing crap at me, and I don't know how much I can endure...
True I can just put on my daily facades...
But what for if I'm not gonna feel happy anymore...

If there's anyone who can really comfort and listen to me right now...
Please do talk to me...
I dowan to feel sad any longer...
I really don't.....
Please...
Gosh I feel like I'm having mood swings or something...
My mood swings when people's mood swings...
So if you see me unhappy, blame it on some idiot who decides to be unhappy...
Cause no matter how hard I try, there will be people who will still be sad...

I wanna be better then who I already am!
But I can't do that without YOU!
Hah...
*Looks out the window...jumps*
Why am I having suicidal thoughts...
Haiz...

Ok I've been blogging since like 7.45pm...
So I shall stop here...
So take carez my friends...
A new day shall come...
Tomorrow shall be a better day...
I'm sure it will...
To be better, to be happier...towards, the future!

*Thank you, Mabeline, for being there for me.*

Zupz Zupz!